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No Reply from Heaven

  I received a response yesterday to my post “Tears in the Closet”.   My friend reminded me of the “extreme separation”, which are the words...

No Reply from Heaven

Friday, May 27, 2011
 I received a response yesterday to my post “Tears in the Closet”.  My friend reminded me of the “extreme separation”, which are the words I used to describe this spiritual and physical separation from Michael, that Jesus felt on the cross.  He wrote, “He felt it acutely when He was pouring out His life and His blood on the cross for our sins.  At that point and time, the Father had to leave Him, separated from everyone and everything on the cross so the sacrifice would be complete.  He cried out, ‘My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?’  There was no reply from heaven.”  Forsaken means to give up or abandon something formerly held dear.  If I were being honest with myself about this, and that is what this blog is all about, I feel a bit forsaken by God.  I don’t feel like He is gone or has left me behind, but I feel like I am in the “and there was no reply from heaven” stage.  It is similar to the times when you are sitting next to a best friend  or your spouse, and you can sit comfortably in silence because of the love and understanding between the two of you.  Sometimes there are no words needed or no words that can be said.  Some of the best comfort I have received from friends these past 3 months, has been a loving embrace and a knowing look into the eyes that says, “I love you, I am hurting too.  I am here for you” , but it is all unspoken.   I have always enjoyed a two- way conversation with God.  I have heard His voice, a few special times audibly, most other times a quiet whisper to my spirit, and sometimes through someone else.  I would talk to Him, and if I took time to listen to Him, He would talk to me.   At this point in our relationship, I feel like we are sitting quietly next to each other without speaking a word.  What can be said?  What comfort can words bring?   I feel Him with me all of time.  I feel His comfort.  I feel the silent understanding.  I don’t hear answers or advice.  I know He is hurting for me and loving me, but there is no reply from heaven, and, quite frankly, I am not speaking much either.  I thank Him for carrying me through each day…. Actually, come to think of it, when I do talk to Him, all I can do is thank Him for the life He has given me up to this point. I do have much to be thankful for, but beyond that, I just don’t know what to say to Him.  I sit in silence a lot in my bedroom and wonder, ‘Should I say something more to Him?’, but there is nothing….so we sit in silence together.  I am listening every waking hour.  The silence does not mean we are absent from one another.  It is a loss for words….. not that God is ever at a loss for words, but I am.  

5 comments:

+Jmray Says:
May 27, 2011 at 7:38 AM

From Oswald Chambers - a devotional reading I have always clung to in times of silence.

AFTER GOD'S SILENCE - WHAT?
"When He had heard therefore that he was sick, He abode two days in the same place where he was." John 11:6

Has God trusted you with a silence - a silence that is big with meaning? God's silences are His answers. Think of those days of absolute silence in the home at Bethany! Is there anything analogous to those days in your life? Can God trust you like that, or are you still asking for a visible answer? God will give you the blessings you ask if you will not go any further without them; but His silence is the sign that He is bringing you into a marvellous understanding of Himself. Are you mourning before God because you have not had an audible response? You will find that God has trusted you in the most intimate way possible, with an absolute silence, not of despair, but of pleasure, because He saw that you could stand a bigger revelation. If God has given you a silence, praise Him, He is bringing you into the great run of His purposes. The manifestation of the answer in time is a matter of God's sovereignty. Time is nothing to God. For a while you said - "I asked God to give me bread, and He gave me a stone." He did not, and to-day you find He gave you the bread of life.

A wonderful thing about God's silence is that the contagion of His stillness gets into you and you become perfectly confident - "I know God has heard me." His silence is the proof that He has. As long as you have the idea that God will bless you in answer to prayer, He will do it, but He will never give you the grace of silence. If Jesus Christ is bringing you into the understanding that prayer is for the glorifying of His Father, He will give you the first sign of His intimacy - silence.

Anonymous Says:
May 27, 2011 at 9:13 AM

Prayer is when you talk to God; meditation is when you listen to God.


Peace be with you dear lady....


ks

Jackie Sanders Says:
May 27, 2011 at 12:19 PM

One breath at a time...Breath in...Breath out...Move on...
I've heard this old expression: Life isn't about the number of breaths we take...It's about the number of times our breath is taken away.
Good & bad you've had your breath taken away several times lately. Keep close the times, that Michael took your breath away... with his love, his touch, a glance, a word. Those moments will keep you moving.
love you...Jackie

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