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Tuesday, May 3, 2011
As I mentioned last weekend, I have recently been going through letters that people have sent me and have been reading, again, the ones that really spoke to me and encouraged me.  In most of the letters, people talk about Michael, a memory they had of him, or what an awesome Christian example he was to the world, while others chose, or were led by God, to encourage me in the person that I am.  I needed to hear both.  At times, all I want to do is think about Michael, and at other times, I can feel discouraged about me and not feel the strength of what attracted Michael to me.  When I read this note, I did not remember reading it a first time.  I know I did, but maybe I was just not ready to hear it.  I now have read it numerous times and it boosts my spirit every time I read it.

She said that she read this verse and thought of Michael saying this to me. "Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.  She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life."  (Proverbs 31:11-12)  She went on to say, "He left you so early and too soon, but as this verse states, he knows you can do it.  As hard as the days may seem and the little things that go by that no one seems to notice or remember except you, he has full confidence in you. You were the love of his life and always will be.  Just wanted to let you know you have so many here on earth that love you and are praying for you. Many in heaven, one in particular, that love you and are watching over you."(Thank you Amy T.... God put you in my life for such a time as this.)

I cry every time I read it.   One of my best friends,Nanette, reminded me, also, in a letter that Michael chose me because I was his champion.  When I read that for the first time, it made me catch my breath.  I think that often times I felt like I am the one that found the champion, not ever realizing that maybe we were equally matched.  He needed my strength like I needed his.  I did not know how badly I needed to hear these comments until I read them. Sometimes, I do not feel so strong. God has showered me with grace to live like a champion when I need to do so, and then allows me to crumble and fall into His arms at other times.  Reading these notes remind me that I have always been strong and that I fought for Michael, as he fought for me. I know that I brought him good, and not harm all the days of his life, and I am and will continue to do so for the rest of my life.  I am thankful and amazed at how God uses all different people to speak into my life at different times to meet my specific needs.  My God shall supply all of my needs.

3 comments:

Anonymous Says:
May 4, 2011 at 7:15 AM

That verse from Proverbs 31 gave me such peace after my husband left. Although I know I made many mistakes and was not perfect, I know that my intent was always to help my husband and I desired God's highest best for him. I pray this scripture will help you in the days ahead to know that you desired the best for Michael because our enemy will use anything to torture us with guilt. May you stand with your head uplifted knowing you are a Proverbs 31 wife!

Anonymous Says:
May 4, 2011 at 9:20 AM

Jene, you are really plugging into some wonderful things. We remember that God is the Alpa and Omega. He knows the beginning from the end and all that is in between. Though we still don't understand Michael's early departing, there is no doubt you were "engineered", if you will, for such a time as this. You were created, trained and prospered for this very moment. I have no doubt you will continue to grow and touch many lives for all of eternity - an eternity that is ever so near. Continue to be encouraged.

kim Says:
May 5, 2011 at 12:17 PM

I read this today on a friends blog.
"If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together-
There is something you must remember.
You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think-
But the most important thing is, even if we're apart, I'll always be with you" winnie the pooh
I thought of you and Michael and how much he believes in you and how proud he is of you for the grace and maturity with which you are handling his absence. Im in awe of your faith ,never waivering, and always witnessing to us, who follow your blog. You are teaching me so much, most of all to be more than content and to live life without having regrets. tring to live it to the fullest like michael and you did together. letting the ones closest to me know how much i love them so that theres never a doubt where my loyalty lies. thats how you and michael are. thanks for being an open book.

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